Saturday, July 20, 2013

Modus Operandi

Moving through different spaces, layers, and subjective time-zones. In a way, I see them as different hubs where each needs a different input/output matrix, fine-adjusted accordingly. I have always hated the human definition of "role" with a passion. I have always seen it as a half-assed mask of a fragmented personality giving its wearer the needed confidence and support needed, and at the same time a vessel of sorts to blend in to the given circumstance. I am fully aware that there are industries and careers where aforementioned is somewhat needed, or even required.

You see, there is a difference between a skill-set needed for a part to play, and an identity adopted to play a part. A role is always, and without exception, handed down (or sideways) from outside. It is formed by peer-pressure based largely on assumptions, and then projected hopes that an individual assuming the role tries to fulfill.

Adjusting your input/output according to the task at hand is not playing, or assuming a role. It is an internal process, chosen by the individual, to meet the challenge. There are thousands of half-assed self-help books, and an alarmingly growing number of troglodytes promoting them, that will encourage you to brown-tongue your superiors "so that you would be happier". I have to agree with Denis Leary on his definition of happiness. It comes in small dozes, very rarely, and after you receive your month's doze of happiness, then you just shut the fuck up, and go to work.